Should be Rated "R" for Not Giving Any Fucks

Why hello there. It has been... eons, it seems, since I last wrote. If you for some reason read this blog when I remember to/feel like posting you will notice that there are quite a few posts that are suddenly missing from my archive. Why? Honestly, because they all at the very least mention a person who I no long wish to have in my life. This person, who I shall only speak of this one last time and will be known as simply "R" for the remaining words, has been a poison in my life for a better part of the 3 years I was friends with them. It has taken me that long to realize it, and even though the saying "better late than never" comes to mind, truth is... I would be a much better person if I had never met them. R was everything I thought I wanted in a relationship. They were funny, smart, charming, independent... The list went on. I thought I wanted to be with R for the rest of my life. Thought I had everything figured out. But R was mean. They were devious, malicious, hardhearted, cold, self centered, and the most antisocial person I have ever met. (For those for you assuming that being antisocial means you don't like being around people and social situations, that's what it means to have avoidant personality disorder. People who are antisocial have these symptoms.)  

While, yes, I let myself be treated like shit by this person for so long, I have finally said enough is enough and cut them out. I have been in a healthy and very happy relationship with a man named Daniel (Dan/Danny) for 4 months, I am getting a management position with my work, and I am moving on with my life. You can't move forward if you're still looking back which is why I have removed so many posts. I'm also debating whether I want to just scrap this entire blog and start over. If suddenly you come to this page and it is completely different, consider it a fresh start. I have received some anonymous hate in the past, I forgive you. But I am not going to be pushed around anymore. I am DONE with taking people's bullshit. Either you get your shit together and treat other people like an actual fucking human being or don't read my blog. Think I'm pretentious, whiny, pathetic, or full of myself? Good for fucking you. Now fuck the fuck off. Nothing gives you the right to hate on another person for being themselves. At least have the decency not to hide behind the title of "anonymous". Ass.

I'm not afraid to speak my mind any more.

I'm not going to hold back and filter my thoughts.

I'm not going to be nice and take shit, from anyone.

I'm going to be me.

Don't like it? Don't read it.

You have been warned.