For the Love of Money... >.>

    I have just been struck with the realization that life is expensive. Like... REALLY expensive. I don't see how anyone does it! I'm struggling just to pay my parents back on my car engine & pay them for my phone bill every month. I seriously don't know how anyone manages to pay for food, gas, car insurance, rent/house payments, electricity, water, & possibly school, pets, and/or children!

HOW DO YOU PEOPLE DO IT?!

    I'm freaking out here guys. I just... I'm starting to think I need to stop going to college just so I can start working more & saving money to pay for the college I've already been through. And you know what? That thought seriously terrifies me. How am I ever going to be able to get through enough college to become a psychologist? I AT LEAST have to get my masters degree, and even then it will be difficult for me to get a job unless I get my Doctorate. That's another EIGHT YEARS of school!!!! EIGHT!!!! And after I get my associate at my local community college, my student loans are going to just keep getting bigger and bigger!

    Everyone says that you should do work that makes you happy. Being a psychologist would make me happy. Being a professional musician would make me happy. But as they also say, it takes money to make money. What they don't tell you is that it takes so much money to start making money that you're going to wonder if it's even worth it at all. That's the point I'm at. How am I ever going to make enough money to move out and still go to school full time? I might as well take pole dancing lessons now. And you might laugh at that but... I've considered it once or twice. 

    My paycheck this Friday was $193.47. I have to pay $50 a month for my phone bill and at least another $50 a month towards the engine. So let's say I make an even $200 every two weeks, or $400 a month. Now I'm down to $300 extra a month. Or but wait, my car just loooooves his gas & demands another $50 worth EVERY WEEK. That's another $200 a month, GONE. That would leave me with $100 to pay towards school every month. Annnnnnd that's it. That's the reason right there that I can't even afford to pay my own car insurance or to move out.

    Sure I might be starting a SECOND job this Tuesday but I have no idea how much that's going to be. Even if I get another $400 a month from that job, that money should be going to school or the engine.

It's no wonder I feel like my life is spinning out of control.

For the Love of Money by The O'Jays