Love and Other Such Nonsense

    So I have these two friends, Alexis and Aaron. Up until a week ago these two had never met, never said a word to each other. And now tomorrow, they're going out on their first date together. I say first date because I fully believe they will be having many more dates in the future that will of course lead to a life of them getting married (to Sir Mix-A-Lot's "I Like Big Butts" of course) and having many hysterical & adorable babies. GET OVER IT YOU TWO, IT'S GOING TO HAPPEN NOW. DEAL. I am very happy for them both and can't wait to hear about how much fun they had together (: And yes, I am taking all the credit for them meeting & getting together gosh dangit! Why? If not for me & my magical powers of bringing people together, they wouldn't have ever even met in the first place! So there!
    As one relationship makes its way into life, another, somewhere, must die. This is a horribly sad but true statement. Even though I am truly excited for both of my friends, I am also a little sad. Since graduating almost a year ago, Alexis and I have become greater friends than ever. I know she is not one to abandon her friends just to spend time with her boyfriend but... I know how a new relationship can be. Especially when it is with someone as perfect for her as Aaron is. Although Aaron and I have never really been that close of friends, I have always felt he is someone I could go to and talk to about anything without any sort of judgement. I have become better and closer friends with both of these remarkable individuals and now its like my parents got me two puppies but decided to take them back for no reason. Boo.
    And for those of you out there reading this going "man what a little baby", you can shut up and fuck off. I'm sorry I grow attachments to people who make me happy. It's not often that I can trust a person enough any more to let myself be truly comfortable and happy around them. I value my friends over everything else. Yes, even over my music.
    Truth is, I see those two together and half of my heart is filled with such joy knowing I helped bring them together. The other half is crying, wishing desperately I could find that instant spark with someone again. The only person I have ever had that with is either being a little dense right now or truly just done with me... And I am pleading with God for it to be that he's just dense. I know I can be alone, I was just fine with it before I met him.. But now...? I'm a mess. I hate my job, feel like I am ALWAYS at school, and quite frankly don't like my life at all right now. I am stuck in a loop of ... of... I DON'T EVEN KNOW WHAT OF. I just want to rip out my hair, trash my room, scream at the top of my lungs. I want to feel alive again. I want to be swept off my feet and have my breath taken away. Is that really so much to ask?

Alexis, he may not drive a truck but I hope he makes you feel as good as this song. I know how much you love it (; Thank you for everything, I love you dear ♥

Somethin' 'Bout a Truck by Kip Moore